Overzealousness.  Stubborness.  These are the traits in him that drive me crazy.  He’s voting for his nephew now.  I don’t know if this is something I should put my foot down about.  It’s our monthsary and that’s his main concern voting for his nephew.  

I lift up to you our life together Lord. The adjustment sure isn’t easy.  I pray for you guidance Lord. Amen.

I feel dejected, frustrated, and a host of unhealthy feelings.  I’m still here Lord. I wan’t to be with hubby but I’m still here.  Thank you for being there for us Lord.  Help me be patient. Help me trust in You. Amen.

The loss is devastating.  My heart bleeds but I need to be strong for us all.  It isn’t easy Lord but I know our family will get through this crisis.  I need to write about it if only to get it off my chest.  Still, we are blessed.  You led him here Lord, You led him to this.  We entrust his entire healing to you.  On the outside, we need to maintain of facade of being “put together”, to smile even when our hearts feels like breaking.  May we all learn from this experience Lord and may life treat us kindly Lord.  I am excited for him Lord. Bless him that he will find you. Amen.

I thank you Lord for the beautiful things in my life, for Raymund, for my family, for my friends, for the many opportunities that have come my way.  I am truly blessed Lord.  I lift up to you my entire life Lord.  Bless me that I may be your instrument.  Bless me that no matter the circumstances, I may stay true to you.  I love you Lord. Amen.

My Dearest Lord,

This day didn’t start out too well.  I am reminded again of my inability to appropriately reply to follow ups.  Even when I practiced, I had the tendency to take what my clients said seriously.  I never could lighten up, crack a joke about work.  In that aspect, I have always been a serious person.  Teach me Lord not to be uptight about work.  Bless me that I may do my work well.  I pray Lord for guidance as I go about my daily tasks.  Bless me as I do the court inventory.  Help me do my job well.  Protect me from the evil that lurks in the judiciary, from litigants and lawyers with no principles, from administrative cases and the like.  

I never thought things through when I accepted this post Lord.  All I could think of was that I’d finally be coming home.  Every day is a stressful day though.  Sometimes, I’d rather just write, not deal with the admin part of the deal.  I know though that I can learn a lot from this experience.

Bless me Lord that I may do my job well.  Lead me Lord.  Thank you for another day.  Thank you for love. Thank you for life.

For each new morning with its light,
For rest and shelter of the night,
For health and food, for love and friends,
For everything Thy goodness sends.
~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I have a lot to be thankful for Lord.  Thank you for my profession.  Thank you for this stint with the government and this chance to introduce change.  Thank you for my ever supportive family.  Thank you for my hubby, you believes in me.  Thank you for knowledge Lord, for the wisdom that comes from experience.  Bless me today that I may do good. May my actions always be guided by your hand. Amen.

A ton of records await my review.  On the chair across my desk are the subpoenas I have to sign.  I thank you Lord for this opportunity to learn about administration and management.  

I have always preferred to work on my own.  I liked the practice because it was just me and the computer most of the time.  It was a wonderful adventure searching my brain for the answers.  As long as I had prepared the day before, hearings went well.

I thank you Lord for blessing me with these opportunities to challenge myself.  I never figured myself as an administrator but somehow that is what I’ve had to do hear.  I have people to lead, people to motivate.  Bless me Lord that I may fulfill my purpose here, that when I leave (in Your time), I will leave them and “it” in a better place.

Somehow Lord, through your help, I’ve managed to win their loyalty (or some of it, at least) and their trust.  Bless me Lord that whatever challenges may come, I may face it with courage, confident that my actions are guided by Your hand.

I thank you too Lord for hubby and our “cool” married life.  Sometimes though Lord, I wish too for the ordinary.  I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be the typical married couple.  Bless us Lord that we will never forget to put You in the center of our marriage.  Bless us that we may grow in our love for each other and our love for You.

All that we do Lord is our offering to You.  Thank you Lord for life.  Amen

I used to write the Lord everyday.  I used to talk to him about my fears, my hopes and dreams. I can’t remember exactly when I stopped writing.  Maybe it was after I began practicing.  

Life became a rat race.  When I got home I would be too exhausted to think and would just hurriedly get in bed to sleep while the late hours I kept at work made it difficult for me to wake up early in time for “quiet time”.  I was always chasing after deadlines.  It was a roller coaster of a life.  

Earlier today I came across an article that advocates the keeping of gratitude journals.  I remember now the peace I had when I had that deeper relationship with God, when I made time for Him, when I started my day with a conversation with Him.  

I miss You Lord.  I miss our bonding moments.  I miss going to mass at Greenbelt Chapel and being moved to tears whenever a line from a mass song or a sermon would touch a chord in my heart.  I want to know You again.  

Thank you for the new challenges in my life that have led me to You again.  Thank you for my new career that has me in contact with the realities of the world.  Thank you for giving me the strength to stay true to Your teachings.  Thank you for all the support I’ve been getting.  

Bless me Lord that I may always know the best way to handle a situation.  Bless me that I may not be led astray.  Bless me that I may not be discouraged, that I may continue to believe in the inherent goodness of people even if my new experiences convince me otherwise.  Bless me Lord that I may be strong enough to weather the storms that come my way.  

Lord, I feel in my heart that this is not the end of my path yet.  I know that you have something better in store for me.  Bless me as I seek my passion, my personal legend, the path you chose for me.  And in the meantime inspire me and motivate me Lord that I may inspire and motivate my staff.  

Thank you Lord for my hubby.  Bless us as we discover more about each other as we live our new life as a married couple.  Bless us Lord that our love for each other may continue to grow and that we may always be in love in each other and in You.  Bless us with a sense of purpose Lord.  Help us find the wonderful future you have prepared for us.  We thank you Lord for the many blessing you have showered upon us.  We lift up all our cares to you. AMen.